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Mar. 26th, 2003 10:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ibnekoWhy isn't there something that solves everything?
Why doesn't magic always work?
Why do my prayers seem half answered, each and every time?
Why am I such a failure?
Why did I chose IB?
Why am I not perfect?
Why is so much required of me?
Why does the world spin so quickly?
Why do I lack direction?
Why doesn't God answer my f*cking prayers?
Why are all my friends failing?
Why can't I convince myself that it isn't my fault?
Why do you even want to reply to this post?
Why am I asking so many questions?
Why do I exist?
Why can't I do more?
Why can I chose to live in another world, one of my own making?
Why can't this other world be magical?
Why can't I find the damn door?
Why does life suck?
Why does life suck for those whom I care about?
Why can't I seem to do anything for them?
Why must their lives suck?
Why can't I sacrifice myself like Jesus to save those whom I care about?
Why do I stress out about things?
Why am I so angry?
Why shouldn't I try cutting?
Why do I live?
Why do I fail?
Why don't I die?
Why doesn't magic always work?
Why do my prayers seem half answered, each and every time?
Why am I such a failure?
Why did I chose IB?
Why am I not perfect?
Why is so much required of me?
Why does the world spin so quickly?
Why do I lack direction?
Why doesn't God answer my f*cking prayers?
Why are all my friends failing?
Why can't I convince myself that it isn't my fault?
Why do you even want to reply to this post?
Why am I asking so many questions?
Why do I exist?
Why can't I do more?
Why can I chose to live in another world, one of my own making?
Why can't this other world be magical?
Why can't I find the damn door?
Why does life suck?
Why does life suck for those whom I care about?
Why can't I seem to do anything for them?
Why must their lives suck?
Why can't I sacrifice myself like Jesus to save those whom I care about?
Why do I stress out about things?
Why am I so angry?
Why shouldn't I try cutting?
Why do I live?
Why do I fail?
Why don't I die?
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Date: 2003-03-27 05:56 pm (UTC)Why doesn't magic always work? Uh... um... you'll have to ask someone who believes in it...
Why do my prayers seem half answered, each and every time? *blinks* Maybe some of them are better off only half answered...?
Why am I such a failure? You are not a failure!
Why did I choose IB? I dunno. Is your regular school really, really bad by any chance? If so, IB is stressful but may be preferable. RM's my home school, it didn't seem like there was a choice when I applied.
Why am I not perfect? No one is. You're close enough.
Why is so much required of me? Because you're capable of so much.
Why does the world spin so quickly? Ahh! No, Physics! *runs away, scared*
Why do I lack direction? Because the world spins so quickly! ...ha, ha, ha...
Why doesn't God answer my f*cking prayers? Some are better off unanswered. Some, you are capable of solving. Some got stuck in the big interdimentional queue of bureaucracy.
Why are all my friends failing? Not all of us!
Why can't I convince myself that it isn't my fault? I don't know. Some people have learned to blame themselves for everything, probably to encourage themselves to fix things. But things aren't usually your fault.
Why do you even want to reply to this post? In hopes that I can say something helpful for once...? Maybe? Any of these questions?
Why am I asking so many questions? You're bored. You're troubled. You're procrastinating. You feel the urge to type. How the hell should I know?
Why do I exist? For the people you help.
Why can't I do more? Believe it or not, you're human.
Why can I choose to live in another world, one of my own making? Why can you or can't you? If we got everything we wanted, life would get dull. I believe this firmly, but not everyone's convinced yet.
Why can't this other world be magical? Can't it?
Why can't I find the damn door? ...I can't find the right door to classrooms when I walk through a school that I've practically lived in for one and a half years...
Why does life suck? Life doesn't suck!
Why does life suck for those whom I care about? Depression makes practical reality seem worse than it is. Either that, or life does suck. I really don't know, I can't explain this one...
Why can't I seem to do anything for them? You can do things. You can keep saying encouraging words. Practice writing and cheer people up!
Why must their lives suck? Surely not all of your loved ones' lives, not all of the time...
Why can't I sacrifice myself like Jesus to save those whom I care about? Today's world doesn't work that way. Maybe someone could do that if it were broadcast online, but... no. No, don't try that, I think you'd make more of a difference if you stay here.
Why do I stress out about things? If you didn't have stress to drive you on, you'd never get anywhere. The tough part is keeping the stress in check... right?
Why am I so angry? Maybe frustrated. Feeling helpless is the worst thing in the world, but the feeling can pass.
Why shouldn't I try cutting? Because it won't solve your problems; because it isn't worth an addiction; because there are better ways to relieve tension.
Why do I live? To help others. Or, uh, to have fun... you pick...
Why do I fail? You're not a failure. How many times would you like to hear that?
Why don't I die? You can't. Not yet, at least; there are still too many things to experience and too many things to know.
-Sharon